I won a contest on Arwen’s blog, which scored me a free reading by Kay, the creator of the Quantum Tarot.

This Life’s Spotlight for Garnet by Kay
Spread by: Peridot Deck: Quantum Tarot

1. What I’ve arrived in this life to initiate (Main Intention).
2. What I’ve arrived in this life to feel (Main Experience).
3. What I’ve arrived in this life to learn (Main Lesson).
4. What I’ve arrived in this life to attain (Main Achievement).

5 of Pentacles from the Quantum Tarot

1. What I’ve arrived in this life to initiate (Main Intention).
5 of Pentacles
It seems that you need a bit of hardship to bring out the best in you.  In your early life, you may have felt keenly that you’ve been shut out of things in some way, and may have experienced hard times financially and/or emotionally.  But something in you thrives on experiences of restriction – it really fires you into action.  On some level, you require limitation to broaden your understanding of who you are and why you’re here.  As you mature, I suspect that you’ll be less prone to attracting dramatic experiences of loss or hardship and more inclined to appreciate what you have and count your blessings.  Seeing others less fortunate than yourself may also drive you to act – you’ve been there and done that and you know how it feels.  This empowers you to respond to others’ misfortune with active compassion.

Garnet’s Thoughts: This card reminds me of growing up through my parents’ divorce, in which hardship made my mom, brother and I have to work together to stay afloat. I resonate with Kay’s statement “you’ll be less prone to attracting dramatic experiences of loss or hardship and more inclined to appreciate what you have and count your blessings” because I’m very anti-drama and I work hard to solve problems and maintain peace with others and internally. I’m grateful everyday for where I am and what I have because I know it all could’ve gone very differently for my little family. Luckily I have a champion of a mom, and she saw us through.

2. What I’ve arrived in this life to feel (Main Experience).

Temperance from the Quantum Tarot

XIV Temperance
Finding balance in your emotional life is going to be crucial.  I suspect you may have “been through the fire” emotionally in your youth – or seen it around you in your family and loved ones.  This may have given you an aversion to melodrama, to the heart ruling the head, but you’re also learning to respect your (and others’) emotions.  You might be someone who’s very good at toughing it out, but now it’s time for you to soften a bit.  For you, head and heart must act together.  You might attract friends or partners that act out one end of the head-heart dynamic, challenging you to bring out whichever side in you is more underdeveloped.  Finding balance externally in your relationships will help you find inner balance too.

Garnet’s Thoughts: Again, “aversion to melodrama” is very much me. The head/heart challenge is a continuous battle, but I’m conscious of it and am seeking that harmony.

7 of Cups from the Quantum Tarot

3. What I’ve arrived in this life to learn (Main Lesson).
7 of Cups
It’s OK to dream!  You probably have a vivid imagination and are full of ideas, but find putting them into action not so easy.  You might react in one of two ways; either dismissing all your dreams as nonsense and not acting on any of them, or trying to act on too many of them all at once and setting yourself up to fail.  The challenge with the 7 of Cups is knowing which dreams have the power to cross the “reality threshold” and make it into the material world.  This is something that comes with experience, and learning how to make your dreams a reality is a major life task for you.  With that 5 of Pents, you won’t have it all handed to you on a plate, so you’ll need to choose your dreams wisely.  But you will need to choose at least one to follow, or you’ll end up angry and frustrated.  Don’t be too hard on yourself if you feel that you’ve failed to live your dreams, for learning to both respect and discriminate among them is a lifelong lesson for you.  My feeling is that a dream diary and/or journal is absolutely essential!

Garnet’s Thoughts: I didn’t realize ’till I read this that this card is VERY much me right now. I want to do soooo many things but my indecision means that I’m not actually DOING anything!

4. What I’ve arrived in this life to attain (Main Achievement).

The Chariot from the Quantum Tarot

VII Chariot
You have a real need for a sense of forward momentum in your life – you want to get stuff done. You’re a positive person who wants to make a practical difference in the world, but it may often feel like a struggle against both internal and external forces.  However, you’re prepared to stand your ground and fight.  Bringing disparate energies (or people) together is a real talent of yours and you’re very good at keeping things on track.  But you need to be careful of riding roughshod over people’s (or your own) feelings for a perceived greater good.  You may be so fixed on your destination, your deadline or aim that you can be quite ruthless about using any means to get there.  This is a strength, but remember to bring in Temperance here and be conscious that the process is at least as important as the outcome. Don’t get too narrow in your focus and always keep the bigger picture in mind.  There’s another goal beyond the most immediate one – and then another, and another.  And sometimes the real goal is quite different from the one you think!

Garnet’s Thoughts: This card has showed up for me a lot this year – guess it’s because I’m in a Chariot year! “You’re a positive person who wants to make a practical difference in the world, but it may often feel like a struggle against both internal and external forces” really sums up this reading for me.

Thanks Kay and Arwen!